Fullness in emptiness

I get up before everyone else when the house is quiet and my mind is relatively empty. I make a big mug of earl grey tea and sit on the couch in the lounge, doing nothing (apart from sipping the tea before it gets cold) - that's right, you haven't got it wrong, I did say NOTHING. Why should I want to spoil the start of a day with doing anything? I don't like using the term 'meditation'; it is such a loaded word and it always implies contrivance and effort which turns it into a 'doing', a state of 'busyness' which is exactly what true meditation is NOT.
True I sit in a crossed-legged position when I enjoy peace and quiet because that happens to be the most natural, comfortable sitting position for me, and my flexibility of the limbs allow me to sit in this position comfortably for as long as it suits me.
The strange thing is, this initial 30 minutes of so 'doing nothing' time is always the time when I fill most full; this fullness comes from within, from the core of my being, from the feeling that each cell of the body comes alive, breathing, pulsating. The mind doesn't come into play for this fullness. I might sound self-contradicting if I describe such a state as 'fullness in emtptiness'. The thing is you cannot fully convey the state with words because words are from mind and communicate to mind. Mind is always limited and limiting. If one attempts 'doing meditation' from the concept of their mind, then they are not only wasting their time, but also adding more delusion and confusion to their already deluded and confused mind.
A Taoist sage called 'The Old Man Qing Hua' taught about EMPTINESS with the following words which were transcribed by an adept by the name of He Zhai-zi:-

Emptiness doesn't imply devoid of movement; it is alive, moving; it is not dissipated or dead but responsive and spontaneous. It is a state of oneness, of unity. ...... If you watch yourself for a moment, is everything that makes up you being empty or full? Everything was naturally empty at the beginning, but you have to fill it up with something. The mind-heart was empty, but you have to fill it up with mundane involvements; the spirit was empty, but you have to fill it up with thoughts and anxieties; the life essence was empty, but you have to fill it up with lust; the vital energy was empty, but you have to fill it up with labour and toil; the mind-intent was empty, but you have to fill it up with emotions of happiness, anger, sadness and fear... So in their natural primordial state, everything inside you is empty, but you have to fill them up with something so that your body and mind becomes trammeled by the density and solidness, just like a feather that's fallen into water naturally loses its lightness and becomes heavy, no longer able of flying in the air but to rot in water.
But how do you return to the original state of emptiness? The Confucianists say 'stop', the Taoists say 'be still and quiet' and the Buddhists say 'fix the mind'. What has filled up the mind has to be obliterated from moment to moment. This is like a vessel that's been filled with filthy muck. To empty it out and make it clean again takes time and effort. 

I'm not sure why people bother going to meditation classes or meditation centres to join a meditation group. Meditation can only happen in alone-ness without any external guidance, be it from a 'holy man', a swami, a guru or a meditation teacher. Has anyone asked himself, why is the need to do meditation, what am I hoping to achieve from it, what is it that a meditation teacher has got which I haven't and what he/she can give to me... The problem is, most people don't enquire, they don't ask themselves questions; they simply want to be lead, guided. In response to this neediness from people, all manners of teachers, gurus, experts stack up their 'commodities' on shelves of the market for people to compare, pick and choose, to purchase. So long as they promise something, they are guaranteed to find buyers. But buy whatever you will, nothing from out there can give you the fullness from within. Only when the mind stops from 'seeking', 'hoping', 'achieve',  can real meditation (excuse me for having to use this word) come about.