My Journal of Tai Chi

Enlightenment - what can you do with it?

2012-02-12T07:21:00.000-08:00

About 15 years ago when I was in my mid thirties, I had an experience which could be described as 'mystical' as it is totally beyond mundane reality:-

One summer night in Beijing, China, it was getting around midnight and I was lying in bed trying to get to sleep. I was fully conscious with nothing in particular occupying my mind. The night seemed to be exceedingly quiet. Then all of a sudden I was startled by a massive humming noise that seem to be booming around the whole of the universe; and at the same time my eye balls flipped upwards and my crown of the head seemed to have blasted open. I beheld (not with the physical eyes) this most brilliant effulgence all around me that it completely enveloped me; in fact there was no separation between me and the light because I lost the separate being-ness so that I was part of that light. The light was nothing like any light you see in this world because you feel it is the source of all the light in the universe; it is the light of light. It had neither direction nor speed of movement. It had no particular quality either but just pure effulgence in golden silver colour. It seemed to be talking to me but with no words: it seems to be saying: I'm the source of everything in the cosmos, source of all the light, love, joy, all the goodness; come back to me! The immense bliss that was melting me was beyond words; it is a bit like a sexual orgasm but ten times stronger and more powerful; and instead of occurring from the sexual organ it started from within my cranium and then expanded to engulf the whole of the universe with me being a particle of it.
After a while, the booming Aum sound subsided and the light also; I was back to my normal consciousness, still lying on the same spot on the bed. I stretched out one hand to try to feel my body to check if I'm still alive. I surely was. I looked around the room and it was as dark and dead quiet as before. Then I started trying to figure out what had just happened. Did I just saw God? Was I hurled back to the beginning of the Universe when the Big Bang happened? Or was I getting a Samadhi as the Hindus calls it or experiencing the kundalini awakening? But what stikes me as strange is that I wasn't trying to meditate or trying to visualise God at that particular hour. In other words, all that happened complete uninvited and therefore unexpected on my part. It isn't completely fair to say that because I had been intensely practising yoga and meditation for hours a day for a couple of years up till then. And my body was under-going something rather weird at the time. The eye balls kept rolling up without me wanting them to which was accompanied by this sense of pressure in the mid brain and around the crown of the head. And some rather strange chanting voices and music kept coming up in a language I was not familiar with(it reminds me of Sanskrit). They seemed not to be of this world but rather celestrial or ethereal. They seemed to be coming from inside of my head and yet from a far far away place in the cosmos.
Even till this day I still can't think of a name to give to that experience. I know for sure it was not just a vision, and certainly not a hallucination. It was a most profound and most real experience. I wouldn't call it enlightenment in itself because if I had been enlightened, I wouldn't have been still around today struggling to bring up two kids and paying a mortgage. A glimpse of enlightenment, perhaps? I would imagine if one had a complete enlightenment, one would completely fuse with that all-engulfing Light and never come back to physicality again.
Though that was an one-off mystical experience, I've still gained from it some understanding of the nature of Divinity or God if you prefer. Here is a brief summery of it:
God is not an old man with white beard sitting on a throne in Heaven judging everyone down here;
Light has no speed or limit, it simply IS and it is everywhere. It has no beginning or end; it is the spring source of everything in the universe, there is nothing else. There is no difference between God, the Word, the Tao, the total truth, light, love, wisdom or bliss because it is just One; all the goodness that man can ever think of or experience is all in that Light;
man doesn't need to go through any mediator, church leader, spiritual teacher or higher-dimensional beings to reach that Light; It is trying to reach out to us all the time ever since time immemorial; that was where we all started and that's where we are going to return in the end;
Having a spiritual experience doesn't end your suffering; there isn't eternal happiness or joy to gain after all. So long as you have a body, you still have to suffer both physically and mentally.
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Never have I stopped seeking to re-unite with that Light ever since though there were a period of about ten years of my life after that which I experienced as 'dark night of the soul'. I had two kids within a very traumatic relationship and experienced deception, emotional and physical abuse and violence and eventually abandonment and loss of home twice; betrayal from close family member...

Anyway, the good thing is now I'm back on track. I still believe deep down from the bottom of my soul that enlightenment is the only meaningful to do in ones life. I really wish I could give up that hope and start living a normal life; but the fact is everything in life seems to be rather meaningless and therefore boring to me - shopping, eating, clothing, socialising, even doing Tai Chi and yoga which I've been keeping up for years following a rather rigid daily self-imposed schedule. Everything in life just feels to be so mundane and tedious! In fact I feel so encased in the physicality of the world and my own body. The spirit wants to be totally free! It wants to go to its eternal home!

Is there any wise old souls out there who can shed some light on my soul's plight? Even souls with no physical body who have made it to the other side? Or any spiritually advanced being from higher dimensions or densities who happen to be hovering in their star ship overhead?

My question is, even if you get enlightenment, what do you do with it in this mundane and dark world?!

Solar storm and the 2012 Prophecy

2012-02-06T13:44:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 24th of month, the Earth received a massive hit of radioactivity due to the solar storm from our Sun. While radiation is generally considered harmful or even fatal to the human organism, a small proportion of the world's populace experienced an upsurge in their energy level and an uplift in spirit. If you are one of these few people who have rejoiced in feeling the loving pull from our Sun, you are one of the few lucky souls who have done the work necessary to raise the vibration level and will surive the final catastrophy that will destroy humanity in its known form. In other words, NO ONE shall survive the doom in their existing physical form simply because the human corporal forms are no use for the next level of existence or the higher density of plane. So all physical forms will be incinerated like dross and what remains will be those souls who've raised themselves to higher levels of vibrations through their effort and labour while living on planet earth (through not just one life time, but many many life times). No amount of wealth or power will save one apart from the purity of one's own soul. You might ask who is there to choose which souls to save? The answer is no one but yourself. Each one of us has been given the choices- to stay on the path of light and love or go down the road of worldliness. We've given the opportunity to make the choices out of our Free Will at each moment of our life in this life and millions of previous life times eons back. But life after life has been spent in chasing our worldly goals, fulfilling phantacies born out of our own egotistic mind. Time and time again we hand over our birth right to illusions of physical existence. As a result, we get punished by our own karma, not for our karma.   However, everything that has a begining must comes to and end.
Humanity inherited the legacy of the abundance of Earth as an oportunity to involve itself so that eventually it will makes its way back to its Creator, the Great Central Sun that is the source of all the effulgence in the entire universe. Instead, not only have we grown greedy and cruel towards each other as well as towards other life forms on the planet, but also we've grown callous to Mother Earth herself even to the extent of destroying the biological balance on earth and polluting, poisoning the very atmosphere we breathe in!
But evolution itself and the Cosmic Law won't make the mistake of putting the cart in front of the horse - the Spiritual Hiarachy and guardians of planet earth won't allow man to destroy the very instrument that has been leased to man for its evolution.
End of Dharma Era
At times of change, there are always opportunists who prey on people's anxiety and fear. In America, someone has come up with the 'brilliant idea' of selling courses teaching people skills to hopefully enable them to survive the end of the world. Another entrepreneur has been busying himself building underground bunker units to sell at $75,000 each which are said to be radiation resistent. Can you believe for one moment these clever people have the interest of others in their heart in promoting these innovative business ideas? The only factors behind their motive are FEAR and GREED, nothing else! Fear of loss, fear of end; greed for money and power over others. How can some people seriously believe they can buy their security, a new lease of life with money! That would totally defute the whole purpose of evolution on the cosmic scale.

False Teachers
Again preying on people's fear and anxiety in uncertain times like this, all manners of 'teachers' and 'prophets' are getting on the stage to proclaim truths. Again they are selling themselves as the ones who has wisdom and knowlege; who make claims to bring people new life or happiness. For every single genuine teacher or adept, there will be hundreds of false teachers speaking on top of him. The thing is, true teachers or adepts are often shy from publicity. Knowing the ignorance and bigotry that the general public suffers from, they don't want to make themselves a target of redicule or even shouts of 'Crufify'! 'The lips of wisdom remain closed except to those who understand' (Kyballion). In the Taoist mystic tradition, the true teaching and knowledge has always been cautiously guarded as 'celestial secrets' and mindless pulferage of them are considred a severe crime in the eyes of the spiritual hierarchy. Even to this day, only a tiny fraction of the knowlege has been made available to the Chinese populace, let alone the western world.
As a general rule, those teachers who try to sell their 'wisdom' in the forms of lectures, workshops, tapes or books and who make all manners of claims and promises can be safely put down as 'false'. Then how to look for geunuine teachers and adepts? 'Only these with ears can hear'. 'When the student is ready, the master will come'. When you meet the true master you'll know by the lustre and spark in his eyes, the radiance in his skin and the warm glow radiating from his heart. If you haven't done your preliminary work, you will miss him even when you come face to face with him.
The Aquarian Age
Be very clear that whatever changes or catastropies that are awaiting mankind are not happening as a punishment for the wrongs or sins we've committed. They are happending as one necessary stage of spiritual evolution on the cosmic scale.
All the teachers within the Mystery have been saying humanity is on the cusp of changeover between the Pisccean Age and the Aquarian Age. Luxamore talks about the 'evolutionary quantum leap' between the two Ages in his essay MYSTERY OF THE SOUL (source: www.indotalisman.com) with the following descriptions:
...In time we will hear terms or phrases such as, the "Ascension Age," the "Quantim Age," the "Hyer-space Age," and the "Photon Age." All of these latter Ages allude and refer to the characteristical nature of the forces that will soon interact, interface and integrate with humanity in the coming Aquarian Age causing a transmutation within the psychosomatic system of man at cellular and atomic levels.
After listing these transmutations in the human DNA, the pineal gland, the way the neurons function in the brain and in the chakric-system, Luxamore continues:

      It is said that the attainment of enlightenment is not merely a psychological event, it is also a chemical and electrical one. It is in fact an alchemical affair. In short in the Aquarian Age man will be spiritually mutated and made anew to a greater perfection - but only if man is prepared and works to facilitate this. This transmutation is the evolutionary quantum leap that awaits humanity.

The significance of Age transfer is highlighted the Acquarian Gospel of Jesus the Christ transcribed by Levi. Jesus referred to the beginning of the Aquarian Age in these words:
      And then the man who bears the pitcher will walk forth across an arc of heaven; the sign and signet of the Son of Man will stand forth in the eastern sky. The wise will then lift up their heads and know that the redemption of the earth is near. (Aquarian Gospel 159: 29, 30)

Levi also transcribed in great details a vision he received making the transfer of dominion from the Pisean Age to the Aquarian Age, a major event in the world of Cherubim and Seraphim. (see INTRODUCTION of the Aquarian Gospel)

Earth Density Upgrade and the Harvest of the human souls
Another material with indepth information regarding the changes awaiting humanity at the cusp of such Age transfer is the Book of One (also known as the Ra Material). This material was transcribed by a group of people in America in the 1980's after receiving communication during dozens of group session from an entity called Ra from higher density plane (we normally refer to these entities as 'Aliens' in our ignorance).

      There is a season upon your planet which shall be highly traumatic within your physical illusion......

It is not either permissible or possible for us to tell you precisely what

events will occur, or when they will occur, due to the fact that the
vibration within the mind and heart of the peoples upon your planet is
determining and will determine the precise events. There is within the
planet Earth a great deal of karma which must be adjusted as the cycle
changes, and these things will manifest. Precisely when, and how, we
cannot say, nor would we wish to, my friends. For the rain, and the
wind, and fire, will destroy only those things which are in what you call
the third density of vibration. You may value those things because you
cannot imagine what a fourth-density existence will be like. We suggest
to you that you spend no time concerning yourselves with the effort of
maintaining your third density existence after the vibration change to
fourth density has been completed.

If, within your spirit, your graduation day has come, those things

necessary for your emergence into fourth density will be done for you.
All will be accomplished by helpers which you must be aware that you
have.

It is extremely possible that damage will occur to those things which

you identify with yourself in the third density. If we may speak plainly,
you will observe the valley of the shadow of death. These very words,
my friends, have been spoken to you before, and yet you cling to that
physical body and those physical surroundings as though your spirit
were attached quite permanently to them.
......

There is a choice to be made very shortly, and it would be preferable if

all of the people of this planet understand the choice that is to be made.

It will be difficult for many of the people of this planet to understand

what this choice is, because it is a choice that they have not considered.

They have been much too involved in their daily activities and their

confusion and their desires of a very trivial nature to be concerned with

an understanding of the choice that they are very shortly to make.

Whether they wish to or not, whether they understand it or not,

regardless of any influence, each and every one of the people who dwell

upon planet Earth will shortly make a choice. There will be no middle

area.

This choice is

measured by what we term the vibratory rate of the individual. It is

necessary, if an individual is to join those who make the choice of love

and understanding, for his rate of vibration to be above a certain

minimal level.

There will be those who choose to follow the path of love and

light and those who choose otherwise. .......

There is going to be a Harvest, as you might call it, a harvest of souls

that will shortly occur upon your planet. We are attempting to extract

the greatest possible harvest from this planet. This is our mission, for

we are the Harvesters.http://www.lawofone.info/
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''On that night, I tell you, there will be two people sleeping in the same bed: one will be taken away, the other will be left behind. Two women will be grinding corn together: one will be taken away, the other will be left behind." - Jesus Christ, The Coming of the Kingdom, The Gospel According to Luke

The following two links offers comprehensive information and insights into the subject of 2012 Prophecy and its associated changes:-
www.divinecosmos.com

http://psychedelicadventure.blogspot.com/2009/01/what-is-happening-in-2012.html

May you stay in peace, light and love at this testing and changing time!

'Eternal youth' and the Cycle of Birth and Death

2012-01-04T15:05:00.000-08:00

Here we go again: another tantalising promise from the scientists - NEW JAB IS ONE STEP CLOSER TO UNLOCKING KEY TO ETERNAL YOUTH - reads one title in Daily Express.
There's no need to go into further details of how, according to the scientists, this will become possible (based on their experiments with aged mice). What saddens me is this desperate perpetual search for the 'elixir of life', hopeless fear for ageing and dying which is part of the natural cycle of Nature regenerating itself.
What is born must die! Even the stars and planets are no exemption. What's the point in fighting against this law of nature?
My question is, will delayed ageing and longer-lasting youth make people nicer and wiser, less greedy, cruel and violent? Will the suffering in the world be reduced with some privileged few staying youthful and living for longer? Will there be more compassion, generosity, equality and therefore less poverty, starvation and suffering in the world? Will the lucky ones (those who can afford the miracle jab) be leading a more meaningful life for the common goods of humanity as a whole?
Instead of investing on a jab to satisfy man's quest for eternal youth and sooth man's fear of ageing and dying, why not invest on means (be it jab, pills or exercises) to change people's heart and soul so that they may have more compassion and joy from within? If every individual regulates his life according to the laws of nature, the chances of diseases and premature ageing will be greatly reduced anyway.
Over-eating, over indulging in sensual pleasures, engaging the body and mind in incessant activities, lack of proper suitable exercises , harbouring negative emotions ... all of these and dozens or more other factors make an individual age quicker than he/she should. What's the point in making all the violations and then pin the hope on a saviour in the form of a 'jab' or a 'pill'?

At this point, a funny image conjures up in my mind - a tree that has enjoyed its lushness in summer is now shivering in autumn wind which threatens to deprive it of its waning leaves. The tree thus begs passers by: 'Please polish up my leaves and clue them to my boughs! I want to stay green for longer than other trees!' What it doesn't know is that without the old leaves falling off the boughs, there won't be new leaves growing in the next spring and summer!

The Taoist adepts (those who seek to liberate themselves and others from the cycle of birth and death; NOT those who darn themselves in robes and perform rituals at temples for show and money)have always taught that ones life lies within one's own hands, not in that of Heaven. Such positive attitude and optimistic overview of life and death is echoed in many western mystic traditions. Modern Canadian mystic, Manly Hall, concludes,
Man is essentially a permanent and immortal principle; only his bodies pass through the cycle of birth and death. The immortal is the reality; the mortal is the unreality. During each period of earth life, reality thus dwells in unreality, to be liberated from it temporarily by death and permanently by illumination.
...By initiation into the Mysteries and a certain process known as operative theology, this law of birth and death is transcended, and during the course of physical existence that part of the spirit which is asleep in form is awakened without the intervention of death ... This is at once the primary purpose and consummate achievement of the Mysteries: that man shall become aware of and consciously be reunited with the divine source of himself without tasting of physical dissolution.

[The Human Body in Symbolism, THE SECRETE TEACHINGS OF ALL AGES]

Many adepts in all traditions, be it Buddhism, Taoism, Hinduism or other mystic traditions, have testified to this truth with their own experiences. This is NOT a mere philosophical or metaphysical idea; neither it is a mere belief. It can be experienced on the physical level within one's own organism in this very life (without any psychedelic intervention)!

Where have the white cranes gone?

2011-12-13T06:19:00.000-08:00

Have you had experiences of glancing up at the evening sky and be stunned by the beauty of a sunset; or glancing out of the window at night and feeling your entire being melted by the light of a full moon; or looking across a valley and see a poem unfolding in front of your eyes as a casual flock of white cranes taking flight across before vanishing into the distance?

Whatever the circumstance is, the stirring created in your soul happens spontaneously, without expecting, without planning, without contriving on your part. The subjective mind which is normally analytical, inquisitive is rendered completely submissive, passive and receptive. At such moment, there is no division, no separation between the observer and what is being observed. You are not there as an witness of the beauty being revealed at that moment, you are part of it.
If, on the other hand, you stop to think about what you are seeing and trying to attach attributes to the beauty with words, concepts or ideas ...At that moment, you disengage yourself from it all and it won't be the same anymore. In other words, you lose that sense of beauty. For instance, you saw the flock of white crane drifting across the valley before disappearing into the clouds in the distance; but instead of just staying with that moment, you start to wonder 'where have the cranes gone' and even go as far as jumping into your car in an attempt to follow the cranes, you've ruined that perfect picture once and for all!
To experience the beauty and wonders that nature throw up from moment to moment, we do not need to find out every single detail. We do not need to know how many trees there are in a forest in order to enjoy a walk along the winding path among its lush trees. We do not need to know the name of a certain type of plant to appreciate the beauty of the flowers it produces; we do not need to find a name for a certain method of meditation in order to render the mind quiet and still. Names and naming are a result of an analytical mind; they separate, divide and categorise. They create frames and compartments which shatter the wholeness and fullness of experiences. Alan Watts sums it up really well with the following observation:-

The natural world therefore reveals its content, its fullness of wonder, when respect hinders us from investigating it in such a way as to shatter it to abstractions. If I must cross every skyline to find out what is beyond, I shall never appreciate the true depth of sky seen between trees upon the ridge of a hill. If I must map the canyons and count the trees, I shall never enter into the sound of a hidden waterfall. If I must explore and investigate every trail, that path which vanishes into the forest far up on the mountainside will be found at last to lead merely back to the suburbs. To the mind which pursues every road to its end, every road leads nowhere. To abstain is not to postpone the cold disillusionment of the true facts but to see that one arrives by staying rather than going, that to be forever looking beyond is to remain blind to what is here. (Nature, Man & Woman)

What is in Emptiness?

2011-11-23T05:03:00.000-08:00

Emptiness is advocated by both Buddhism and Taoism alike which is why they are often misinterpreted as negative nihilism. The problem lies in jumping into conclusion after looking at the surface or a fragment of the whole.
This can be best illustrated with the sky above our head. Its vast, empty, full of space; yet it is versatile, volatile and dynamic, full of potentials. It reveals the Sun and the Moon; it carries everchangable- clouds; it nurtures rains, wind, storms, thunder; and most important of all it is a vehicle for the very air we breathe in. In a word, the sky is by no means sterile and inert. Because of its emptiness and seemingly passivity (non-imposing), docility (non-interfering) and receptivity (non-invasive), all activities that are necessary for nurturing life on earth are allowed to take their own course on our planet.
This is exactly the state of being an illumined person has reached. His mind is devoid of all conditioning, all perceptions, all contrivances, all artfulness, all judgements and discrimination. He is free because his mind is not compelled to go in any direction or pulled this way or that by old habits, inertia or external influences. The emptiness of his mind has meshed with the emptiness of the Universe simply because of the affinity between the two. In other words, the union is not a result of contrived effort from the individual (through faith, doctrine or belief systems); neither is it the work of Divine Grace. God doesn't show favourtism; He doesn't pick you up just because you worship or pray to him. If the sky is blocked by dark clouds and you cannot see the sun, what would be the use to pray to or worship the Sun to show itself to you? If our mind has been made opaque by all manners of defilement, how can our soul be illumined by light from Heaven?
True meditation can only happy when the mind has been rendered quiet, passive and empty. Then it will be filled with the Otherness. This is exactly what Jesus was trying to teach when he said, "Empty yourself and I will fill you up." Any effort from the mind to grasp at things, project things will only make it unfit for meditation.
The human body is a reflection of the universe in microscopic scale. When one sits in quiet meditation (genuine meditation, not sitting posture coupled with mental gymnastics) devoid of tension, the body will start trembling of its own accord. This is because energy(chi) and vitality (chin) within, which has been locked up by accumulated tension of the body and mind, has once more been allowed to take their own natural course. Once the space is created, real genuine movements and dynamics will take place.
Such a state is described in detail by Lao Tze in Tao Te Ching:-

Such the scope of the All-pervading Power

That it alone can act through the Way.

For the Way is a thing impalpable,

incommensurable.

Incommensurable, impalpable.

Yet latent in it are forms;

Impalpable, incommensurable

Yet within it are entities.

Shadowy it is and dim;

Yet within it there is a force,

A force that though rarefied

Is none the less efficacious.

[Chapter 21 Tao Te Ching as translated by Arthur Waley]